So today I had quite a lot of free time. Much of the morning I spent listening to music. (I bought new headphones so I’m enjoying them right now. hehe) I put my iPod on shuffle mode as I always do when I don’t really have anything I want to listen to in particular. 

While on shuffle, I usually skip songs I dont feel like listening to at the moment. Then “Mighty to Save” by Hillsong United came on and I felt moved not to skip it. While listening to it, I didnt realize that I all of a sudden was so still. I wasnt really thinking of anything else. I was sort of in a state of reflection, I guess. After the song ended, going back to listening to secular music didnt really feel right. I decided to start playing praise songs instead. My still state continued. The songs provided me an opportunity to set my eyes on God. I guess as a Praise Minister in church, music becomes the tool in opening the eyes of my mind and my heart to Him. Soon, a couple of lines from songs struck me:

“Father, let heaven and earth collide in the endless wonder of your love upon the cross” - Father, Hillsong United

“the hands that cradled the stars are the hands that bled for me” - Aftermath, Hillsong United

I’ve listened to these songs countless times before but every time I do, something different from these songs strike me.

My mind was opened to the reality that I’ve been running on empty. No, I dont think I’ve burned out. No, I dont think I’ve lost sight of God’s love. But I realized that I haven’t been growing. I feel I’ve been too content with where I am right now. I feel that I’m in a good place with my relationship with God, but thats exactly what’s missing. I have not made an effort to grow further which is what everybody needs. I grew stagnant instead of striving to grow.

Those two verses struck me because God’s sacrifice and love for us is at such a high level and intensity. And as the recipient of this love, nothing should stop us from trying to reach that level of loving him back! Though I know he doesnt see it this way, but I feel we “owe” God that much. That much glory we find in him needs that much worship from our lives. We should all keep striving to grow in faith like how we strive to work in school and in our orgs and in office work. Never stop striving. For Him, the God whose hands cradled the stars and bled for us, let heaven and earth collide through and in US.

Just a reflection I felt like sharing. Sorry for the novel-length post. haha